I have a sense of relief.  I have never had a trainee such as Rubber Slut Necro.  Her introductory examination and mind sweep is complete, for now anyway.  Success seems to be in hand.  On Sunday night I was able to release her from her bondage and reward her with my strap on cock.  I stroked the inside of her juicy pussy until she had an overdue orgasm.  She seemed spent.  I know I was exhausted.

I cannot help but feel there is more trouble coming from this one right around the corner.  Some newbies are more difficult then others, of course.  Some are recruited, some are hand picked right from the local scene and others are chosen from a laundry list of applicants.  The most interesting kind is those unsuspecting ones that fall into my lap through chance meetings.  These are people that are curious but not really into the scene nor do they have any experience with rubber fetish or BDSM.  Concerning my rubber slut Necro, formerly known as Mistress Necrophilia (her self titled aka but no longer), she seemed to fit this category.  I now believe that I have been duped.  I should know better when a little sex muffin like Necro seems to just fall out of the sky, landing right at my door step.  It is apparent to me now that this corpse loving Goth girl got here by her own design and not by chance.  This conniving little slut is a dominant female by nature and her personality profile slipped right past me.  Is it because I was too caught up by her sexy curves and innocent "who me" attitude?  Maybe I was just too eager to get her under my control that I ignored my standard protocol?  Maybe it is all of those reasons, but let me back up a bit and explain the events that led me to this conclusion.

During the individual five days of Necro's stay, there were moments when it seemed much more like we were filming scenes for a horror flick.  In many horror films an innocent person might be bound to a chair or something like that; the location a wet and seedy basement or an over lit and sterile laboratory.  The victims are probably being subjected to unimaginable torments that would make most onlookers look away.  All of the things being done to them are against their will and for the personal enjoyment of another.  That seems to be the typical formula.  You might ask what the differences were between a horror film and my sessions with Necro.  First and foremost, she is not dead.  Let's get that out there.  More importantly, Necro was the person bound to the table and not by her own choice.  I guess we lose some of the effect of the helpless victim initially when you know we are not going to kill her off.  The truth is she was a willing participant to her subjugation simply by her request to serve me.  It is a requirement that a trainee releases control over to me as evidence of their submission.  Once committed, her ability to control her fate was over.  Her subsequent actions and unrelenting desire to resist my commands were the reasons things got so elevated.  It is her defiance that took things to the point that the crew was feeling a bit shy, if not sorry for the little slut.  They seemed a bit squeamish at times.  This is where they possibly experienced moments of horror type film making.  I knew what I was doing and so did Necro.  It is those outside of the fetish and BDSM world that find it difficult to find the difference.  In my dominant world, my "sub" is expected to get into the correct head space, say the right things and/or do the right things, as I command.  If done properly, then the punishment and torment does not have to reach excessive levels.  I make it very clear while in session what I expect and require.  Necro understood this but defied and challenged my will to take her torment to levels beyond the norm.  I do have a tendency to make my slaves suffer for my personal entertainment but not to this extreme.  It is apparent that she wanted to show me that her mind was stronger than my own and that I could not break her.

    

I had previously advised my trainee, code name "Rubber Slut Necro", that she would be continuing her training on Thursday night past and that I wanted to be done with it that night.  She has a tendency to be late and casual about her appointments which is another issue I need to tend to... but that is for another time.  Lucky for her she arrived on time for once, which saved her sweet little ass from a beating.  My patience has been tested more then enough by this one already.  She prances around like some hot little princess in between sessions.  I think she is trying to send me messages that she is unaffected.  I could not wait to snap her arrogance like a twig.  I knew her rubber fetish slave training needed to be turned up a notch or two, but not 10 notches!  Indeed, she was a hard one to break, which is what this scheduled session was all about for me.  I must admit, I did enjoy her defiance and resistant behavior but it does get old after awhile.  I am not here to play games unless they are games that I design.  I had learned from day 1 and 2 that I needed to turn up my wicked meter if I wanted to tame this slut.  Her exam period had expired and gone much longer then should be necessary.  I made plans to repeat some of her torments with more intensity and added a few new inspections to increase the humiliation factor. 

Anyways, we had a lot of ground to cover after being two days deep into this session of a "newbie in training".  A trainee should never be given too much free time anyways.  In the early stages, when they are not completely programmed, it can be too easy for them to forget their place.  To prove how difficult Necro is and was, Thursday was supposed to be the last day of examination and introductory training for her.  It turned out that I was way off on my estimation.  I could not wrap things up with her until deep into Sunday night.  I remember thinking at times, "Is this rubber sub slut a machine or what"?  I wondered why she approached me to become one of my submissive sluts in the first place.  It took me some time (days obviously) but then I think I finally figured it out.  Necro is such a dominant personality that she gets off on the torment, the probing, the humiliation and subjugation because she is trying to top me from the bottom.  She is trying to be in control.  She likes to challenge me or frustrate me, pushing me further and further to break her.  She really enjoys fighting me until it gets to the point where she has to relinquish control of herself to me.  When she truly has nothing left to fight me with, then she gives in and it is real.  She wants me to force her to the point of exhaustion and devoid of fight or resistance.  Then and only then is she truly BROKEN.  It would seem that might only be until she gets her energy back up.  In reflection, I think this is just so damn erotic and sexy.  Trying to top me from the bottom?  Wow, that is yummy!  I could eat her all up right now it turns me on so much.  She is now a potential candidate for an eventual Mistress/Dom position once I am done training her.  What a great assistant she might become!

    

So, now I know.  This submissive in training is really a dom in training.  She has decided to learn my methods from first hand experience.  Submitting to me does not seem to be her main purpose or goal.  That is fine.  Testing my responses to her endless resistance was more for her education then for my benefit.  My conclusion is that this devious little slut has had an agenda that far exceeds the desire to serve me.  It is no wonder that she was not easily programmed.  An initial training session, examination, inspection and profiling should take only one day.  Necro and her defiance caused me to take it to five separate days of work including three over night stays chained to the exam table.  Even I find that hard to believe but it is true.  I have a feeling that all of the "bugs" have not been worked out as of yet.  Much more defiance to come and I am looking forward to it.  I am sure some corporal punishment, extreme torment, humiliation training, mind sweeping and strict bondage will continue to be par for the course.   I am up to the challenge and actually excited to make Necro pay for her hidden agenda.  This should have been disclosed in our initial interview so I am very eager to make her regret her attempted manipulation of yours truly.  If she wants to learn how to be wield the power and control of a dominant female, so be it.  I am happy to teach her what a real Mistress does to her unruly, manipulative and deceitful slaves.  I welcome the opportunity to show her how it is done, literally... from the ground up.   I am thinking of Necro suspended upside down, hands bound behind her back, o-ring gagged and forced to tongue bathe the bottoms of my boots right after I walk through some mud.  That might be a good start.  My little bitch in heat... you asked for it, you got it! 

    

The good news for my future pay site members is that the days of sessions and training have all been captured on film and photos.  I have reviewed the footage and realized these things now that I did not grasp in the heat of the moment.  What I had to do to Necro was very frustrating but very pleasing at the same time.  It really was interesting and now I am very excited for the future.  Now maybe you can see what I meant by making a comparison between a horror flick and breaking Necro down.  I may have sampled a few pages right out of the best, or worst deviant horror films but at least we are able to bring Necro back for another episode.  Just review the sample photos and judge the "horror" for yourself.

XOXO
Gwen