I have to admit that a few years back, when first introduced to the concept and imagery of female masking or total transformation, I was a bit unsure of how I felt about it.  I love fully encased rubberized females, of course.  Female masked and transformed dolls, male or female, was still a bit foreign to me.  I love looking at most anything that resembles a beautiful woman in rubber.  I could appreciate the imagery I had seen of the Rubber Sisters  (www.RubberSisters.com)who are very well known to most rubber fetishists.  I remember first seeing Steffy the Rubber Doll for the first time at Dom Con LA, following her around trying to snap a picture in utter amazement.  Still, this female masking thing was rather odd to me.  I know it fits in quite well into the realm of bizarre kink, rubber and all of that kinky stuff I like.  Put a Rubber Doll in bondage and you really have my attention now.  I was there, but at the same time I did not really get it and I thought the masks were kind of spooky and mannequin-like.  I thought it was kind of weird... no kidding, right?  In the pictures below, you can see I was enthused to be next to these sexy creatures that ;looked as if they stepped right out of display are of the Hollywood Wax Museum.  I still thought it was very bizarre, yet at the same time it was so mentally stimulating for me to look at.  Check out my first one on one moment with the Rubber Sisters and Steffy the Rubber Doll.  These photos are from the San Francisco Fetish Ball in 2006.

I have changed quite a bit over these past 2 years.  I have engaged and confirmed my love for female masks, forced feminization and transformation.  I think that is quite clear by now.  I just did not know any better due to a lack of experience.  It is so beautiful to me to recognize my progression through the ranks of kink from a curious novice with no experience to all that I am today.  I have graduated from ground zero through the ranks.  My kinky sexperience is so much more extreme and exciting, reaching levels of perversion that I would never have imagined previously.  The more kink inspired actions I take or do, the more I want to knock down personal barriers and limits that I have previously held.  How could I know the power a female hood had over its recipient since I had never tried it?  I have a countless list of kinky things I did not like or understand in the past. Things I thought I would not ever do or enjoy; only to try them and participate in those same activities to the point that it became a personal fetish or desire.

Fortunately for me, my first personal experience with female masks gave me a tasty sample into the world of Rubber Doll Transformation.  The flavor changed my thinking and fetish pallet forever.  It was about 2.5 years ago.  I was involved in my first photo shoot with Rubber Gal (www.RubberGal.com) and during that time I was able to finally see the light.  We were at the tail end of our evening together, but we had time and energy to do one more little play session.  I had brought along my new female mask that I had received as a gift from my dedicated webslavester, Pet Worm.  The worm is a female transformation & masking lover himself.  His hope had been that I might try it out for myself.  The mask he provided was made by Maskon  (www.Maskon.com).  Anyway, I went ahead and tugged that doll face on and it was laced up nice and snug, yet it was nothing like wearing your typical latex hood.  It felt very bizarre, as if I were suddenly disconnected from reality.  I was alive and well underneath the blank and silent stare of the mask, but there was this complete disconnect from expression and an inhuman quality.  It felt exactly like I was trapped inside the head of a mannequin.  I was not even sure I liked it at first, but after settling in I started to notice a comfort and security I had never known before.  How strange it was to feel things emotionally or move my face in reaction to things being done to me, yet not able to communicate.  Whatever I felt on the inside was not able to be communicated to the outside world other than by my much muffled speech or the slipping my tongue through the mouth slit (which I believe is optional).  I certainly do not think I have ever had an out of body experience such as I did when wearing that mask.  Despite the expressionless doll like features, I was surprised that it made me feel so sexy and turned on. I felt so free with my face hidden behind a wall of rubber that my mind buried itself deep inside the cocoon the mask had created.  It did not even seem like it was me anymore.  What a way to lose yourself in the moment and feel that complete anonymity of becoming someone or something else.   It turns out, Rubber Doll or Doll Transformation is just another extension of my desire to become something other than myself; another way to be transformed into a sexual being that has no accountability for what he or she does or what is being done to them.  Being able to obtain such inner freedom and escape is truly a wonderful experience.  Check out the pics below of my first time introduction into the world of Rubber Doll Transformation.  I am in the mask and that is Rubber Gal faux shaving my smooth bald crown.  That is yet another fetish of mine.  I just have to be strapped down and have some sexy Mistress weild clippers to rid me of my hair and then shave the stubble off of my head; someday, maybe.  Now that would be what I call scary!

As a true female, I imagine my experience is less erotic than it might be for men as my transformation is not quite as far of a journey.  The more people I meet, the more I realize how many men are mesmerized with the idea of female transformation.  For women, not only is it the most ultimate form of flattery but it is so damn hot for a man to attempt to emulate the appeal that is the female form.  Even for men who aren't as comfortable with their inner female, the option of doing Forced Feminization is just as appealing, if not more, for me.  If they are not turned on by the idea at first, I am certain I can make sure that they are sooner then later.  One can not ignore the stimulus of the humiliation factor either.  I love that part, especially when I am the one forcing the transformation as Mistress Gwendolyn.  The individual aspects concerning the overall make up of the transformation can not be ignored.  In effect, when enjoying forced feminization, it can free the person being transformed from any internal responsibility or issues.  This way, they are allowed to just enjoy the experience.  Also the more you can get the subject to cross over the more it empowers the person orchestrating the transformation.  You can allow yourself to truly get in touch with what you find appealing within their transformation and the result is a mutual escape from reality. 

I guess for me this all ties in with being a switch player.  Ultimately, the more we experience on all sides of the sexual realm, the more we understand each other and how to better serve our needs.  I have often been so into the typically "male" aggressor role, when I am in control or transforming my male slave that I am surprised at how powerful the instinct is over me.  Where did that nice, sweet little lady go to?  Conversely, the more I am into my role as the aggressor, the controller and the dominant, the easier it is for my subject to slip into theirs and give in to being my female doll slut.  Funny how that works; if your subject is giving you control, you better take it back!    

The process of feminine transformation is not a fast and easy journey.  The first part of my forced transformation communication (with men specifically) may go something like this:

You can not just become a woman overnight.  You can not expect to emulate the pure sexuality and beauty by covering your maleness with a rubber hood.  Transformation starts within and then must be brought forward.  It begins with subtleties.  Take this week to begin your transformation from male scum to female butterfly.  You will perform the following to the best of your male ability:  

First, you will go to a store and purchase a plain notebook which you will entitle simply “transformation”.  Upon the completion of each task, you will chronicle your feelings and emotions before during and after each task.  You will keep your book updated at all times should I wish to evaluate your training. 

Next, go to the nearest Sephora or Department Store where your assignment is to identify your female scent.  This is an important task as a woman feels, smells and acts at all times feminine.  You will not accept help from any able bodied female who will volunteer her services.  This is your task and to assign it to a capable female is of no benefit to me. This is an important task.  Do not shrug it off or neglect to take your time and truly identify your associative smell.  This scent will become your female trigger and the mere whiff of it will send your mind whirling into a submissive plight of servitude and femininity. 

After we have committed you to your feminine scent, your identity transformation can begin.  As a female, you must and will shave your legs from the hips down.  Eventually we will remove all body hair, but you must get used to the feel of your transformation in stages.  There is no way for you to escape your male pig identity and filth if you are covered with unruly hair.  You will shave in a hot bath, carrying out the action softly, slowly and carefully.  You will take notice of and caress your legs.  You will take great measure to preserve the beauty of your skin.  Avoid any unnecessary nicks or cuts.  To cause you pain is not the objective, but if it must be... it certainly is not to be self inflicted due to your clumsiness.  If you do not know how a razor works by now you had better learn quickly...

Of course, there is much more to my design.  This is just a sample of how it might go if you were my subject.  To see what might happen from there you will just have to keep visiting my blog.  I hope you find my idea of transformation exciting.  For anyone who is not familiar with this fetish, here are some of my favorite Doll sites and where I find my inspiration.  First off I would have to say my favorite is the site of Monica & Jacline, better known as The Rubber Sisters.   If you haven't seen their site lately be sure to check out the great new look and functionality.  They have the most amazing masks, costumes and sets.  They must be the hottest and kinkiest rubber twins around. 

       

(www.RubberSisters.com)
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Of course, one would be remiss if they were not to also mention Steffy the Rubber Doll.  This living doll is basically the Rubber Doll ICON, at least in my eyes.  Be sure to visit Steffy's website to find out more about her and the kink filled lifestyle she leads:
 

(www.steffytherubberdoll.com)
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In have done some investigation on the web for resources, but many are new to me.  I have not personally tried any of these products from the companies listed below.  Maskon and those listed below seem to be the most interesting female transformation suppliers for masks and body suits.  Here are the  sample pics and the links:

Photogenic Mask has super sexy female masks for those on a large budget.  Their masks combine ultra realistic features and gorgeous details.  This covers two fetishes of mine:  female transformation and Asian women, but they do have something called Euro1, 2 and 3 for more conventional Caucasian styles.

(www.photogenicmask.com)
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I just recently discovered FEMSKIN.  Their female skin suits are so sexy and realistic, yet out of this world bizarre at the same time.  How perfect is that!  I think I am going to have to find a way to get one soon.  I can not wait to have that smooth rubbery skin wrapped around my body!  I can only imagine how incredible it might feel once inside the suit.  What I do know is that I can imagine myself inside and I bet you can to.  Perfect for transforming the men but sexy and kinky enough for me to want to try as well.

(www.femskin.com)
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I also discovered another source for female masks from Nikki's Monster Shop.  They seem to have some very exciting masks available.  A rubber doll friend of mine highly recommends their product. Yet another option!

(www.nikkismonstershop.com)

I hope I have communicated as much helpful information as possible.  I love being transformed into a Rubber Doll and I adore transforming others into my personal living Dolls as well.  If it is being done against their will... even better!  As one who previously did not understand this fetish (due to ignorance), I have officially gone over to the Doll Side.  I'll see you there.

XOXO
Gwen